InsaneJournal

Current location:	Irwin House
Current mood:	sad
Current music:	T.M. Revolution - Resonance
Entry tags:	death

Murf...
My dad just called. My Uncle Bill died. It was sudden, he collapsed in the living room and when they got him to the hospital, he was already gone.

I'm crying over him, but mostly over the thought of my mom. That was her only brother. Now she's the last of the Austin clan above the Mason Dixon. Mom doesn't really know her other relatives, and sure, Uncle Bill's wife and their kids are still around, but still...

I remember that Mom was very attached to her parents, and LOVED her Aunt Helen. They were all a close-knit bunch. And now to think that all Mom has left are the few kids Uncle Bill and Aunt Jane had makes me cry even harder.

I can't imagine the pain of loosing my brother.

And what's worse, Uncle Bill's 15 years older than Mom. Does that mean I only have fifteen years left? (I know I don't, but I can't help but keep thinking it. Damn my thinking!)

Uncle Bill, I've always idolized you. When I was younger, you were such an intelligent man, far beyond my years of knowledge. As I got older, I disagreed with your viewpoints a bit, but still loved and admired you. I just wish last time you were in here in PA, I could've spent it with ya rather than go out on a date... I love you Uncle Bill, hope you're well.

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