Winged Rivers

My dad just called. My Uncle Bill died. It was sudden, he collapsed in the living room and when they got him to the hospital, he was already gone.

I'm crying over him, but mostly over the thought of my mom. That was her only brother. Now she's the last of the Austin clan above the Mason Dixon. Mom doesn't really know her other relatives, and sure, Uncle Bill's wife and their kids are still around, but still...

I remember that Mom was very attached to her parents, and LOVED her Aunt Helen. They were all a close-knit bunch. And now to think that all Mom has left are the few kids Uncle Bill and Aunt Jane had makes me cry even harder.

I can't imagine the pain of loosing my brother.

And what's worse, Uncle Bill's 15 years older than Mom. Does that mean I only have fifteen years left? (I know I don't, but I can't help but keep thinking it. Damn my thinking!)

Uncle Bill, I've always idolized you. When I was younger, you were such an intelligent man, far beyond my years of knowledge. As I got older, I disagreed with your viewpoints a bit, but still loved and admired you. I just wish last time you were in here in PA, I could've spent it with ya rather than go out on a date... I love you Uncle Bill, hope you're well.

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I'm over at Sunrise's house, which is super fun times. We made sure to actually wake up early *le gasp* and were crafting. And then!! And then! We went out to a park! XD It's a really nice park, probably look super awesome come summer times. Sunrise has been goin' on dating sites lately, trying to keep busy to forget the guy she just broke up with from a five-year relationship. I don't blame her. So to help, I'm taking pictures of her in the outdoors 'cause Kuroneko's camera is SO MUCH awesomer when in the daytime. The pics come out BEAUTIFULLY. So Sunrise got some awesome shots and Vaughn the SD doll got a little bit of action, something I've been dying to do.

But I'm feelin' for poor Sunrise. One guy thus far has given her the stopped phone call treatment, and the second guy kinda has issues 'n at... One of the issues was killed just today, too. He has an ex-wife up in Minnasota and had a young, three-year-old daughter. The ex-super bitch/ex-wife (she thinks, she doesn't know much) was driving and was in a bad accident. Obviously, the guy's not ready for a relationship NOW, but Sunrise has no clue exactly how to help him. Of course she's gonna be there for support and to try and help him, but other than that, he's kinda like a stranger... Wouldn't wanna be in her position. Godspeed, Sunrise, Godspeed...

In other news, I'm finding myself lusting for a Soom Beryl. I want one so badly, I dream about her. XD I felt silly today. A chick was taking offers and I offered $100 for Beryl. Figured, hell, why not? The chick, of course, was all "Your offer too way low" and I'm like "Yep!". I would've shit my pants though if she had said sure. *laughs*

I've been kinda wanting to be serious about my photography lately. Sure, alls I got is a digital camera (a... what is it... a Nikon Coolpix L3). But taking pictures of Sunrise and of my dolls... I think I have a bit of talent. It'd be kinda cool to advertise that and take pictures of other peoples dolls or of people themselves. I have a photobucket account of everything and I've been looking through them. I might have potential? It's something nice to think about. ^______^

And on anoter sad note, Yoite died in Nabari no Ou. ;-;-;-;-;-;

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