9/23/09 08:25 am - Trying to sort it all out...My mind's been on a lot recently. Issues concerning my job and if it's going to be the one I want for the rest of my life. I'm pretty sure that I want it... The question is am I good enough? I hate managers that make you feel inadequate about your work... *ponders going to the headhoncho*
Other issues are trivial, such as backstory to my dolls which now are starting out to be more like characters. Melbourne was always a character, but now that I've been in his hobby for a year and a month or so, story ideas are spinning. Which is good. I miss writing very much, but haven't had much of a drive to do some. And it feels so good to listen to Third Eye Blind again. The new CDs are like meeting an old friend you haven't seen in so long. They still have a few familiar quirks, but the world has changed them slightly. It's so good to be embraced by one of the bands I love the most. I'm worried about being pro-fat and about supporting my friends who choose to loose weight. I know it's their own personal decision, but I'm starting to slip into what I do with Christianity; scoff at it, then berate myself and remind myself that extremism is what's to be hated, not the source itself. I can't help but to automatically hate on the hundreds of books I see about loosing weight. My current "favorite" is the Christian one where God wants you to be the perfect weight and to attain happiness by being skinny. T_____T I can't stand it when the book is telling you to loose weight to be happy/be loved/be accepted. "You won't be teased as much when you loose a few pounds!" Great moral support there, kthnx. Speaking of support, I can't join a support group for pro-fat 'cause, well... They scare me. >___>;; They are so anti-skinny that it's, well, extreme. I know that they'll take my confused feelings and make them worse. *le sigh* I gotta figure this out myself. 'Cause I love my friends and I fully support their decisions! <3 You guys rock~ But I do hate the diet industry. They aren't there for your moral support; they want your monies and will make you feel terrible just to get it. Doctors are even in on it, 'cause I'm apparently "obese" despite the fact that I'm perfectly healthy. *growl* Also... cold house is cold. *suffers* -- Sudden new thought five minutes after posting: While I don't own the Suzuki anymore, I still want to record what had happened to me to the BBB or somewhere else... But how exactly would I go about that? *had to trade the car in 'cause the engine was starting to sound scary >____>*  *wuvs* His name's Hugh Humphrey Reginald aka Reggie. <3. |
cold *shiver*